Immaturity Poem by Kevin Carney

It’s been such a long while….
Away you’ve been somewhere,
so far away.
What a journey it must of been.
I still remember you oh so well.

Long and lost,
left behind….
You said you needed this for yourself.
Direction you had,
the drive I lacked.
Such a shame I threw it all away…

Too late I grew up.
You felt that from the start,
you weren’t going to stay.
Selfish,
I just wanted to live for the moment.
Never did I see that far horizons with you.

What a fool I was…
Letting you go that last night.
Never did I even try to raise a fuss.
So stupid was I,
saying it was alright.

Did I learn my lesson?
Could I get a second chance?
Would I swim a distant ocean to find you again?
Can I spell the word regret?

My memories, still so clear…
The times were so poignant,
so long ago we began.
Those shadows of the past still haunt at me…
Anytime I think of you,
it still haunts me to this day.

Feelings still deep inside…
Just learning now,
how deep the want of you,
still hungers there.
What could have been,
what really should have been?
Releasing my deep torment,
realizing my own self inflicted pain.

It was just by the slightest chance.
So unfortunate I have become,
to see you come back.
This must be a cruel twist of fate.
Maybe you won’t remember me…

I know you can do so much better…
It’s me that could have changed,
the fate of you and me that night.
I don’t think I will ever change,
I know I have tried.
I think I would try to tell you,
I have change only to revert back again.

So bad I treated you the last night we had.
If only you knew the price I’ve paid…
So stupid of me to let you slip away.
All I can say is I deserve, whatever it may be.