Im A Liar Poem by Detek Campbell

I'm a liar
So I lie
I lie to myself every day
Everyone I love fades away
Only to see
It's me who needs therapy

Taking bullets from my voice
My friends and family had no choice
To leave my
Cause I can't admit
That my brain took on a harder hit
I need a different outlet
The damage can't be managed
Doing well at finding my way
But getting lost in it every day

So much build-up
Can't release it in time to keep a straight mind
Have to shoot down everything I know
Confused about what vibes I should show
Where's that door I have to leave soon
Not welcomed here it seems
Need a break I'm getting a headache
I'm lifting my life around everything fake
Can't stay stable
you
No one knows what I'm able to do



I'm never going to quit
I can't find a way to understand
Why did I put this gun in my hand
Always having a fit
It's my fault I quit
Started toxic behaviour
Lit that addiction
It gripped me in this direction
Why can't I get the attention
I want nothing more than Affection
hold my happiness together
But I love the pain of failing out of place
It's fine until no one's on the other line

I'm running out of time
Only doing pain to what's left of my brain
Call me insane
Call me whatever suits your main desire
Don't come near me
When I'm just your liar
using it to build your empire



Shooting everyone away
Not knowing what they are trying to say
I cut them off in a selfish way
trying to get them back
I bullshiit my lies
As they start to detach
My words are even more of an attack
Not making sense
I'm so far inside my head
Far from saving it
It doesn't matter what bull is said
I'm drinking this away
something feels dead
I'm not okay

It's no fun being stuck alone
But it's all the steps towards self-help
It melts me back into my old games
Back to the bottle feeling all of my sad sorry sorrows
That makes me suffer
Doesn't think I'm a liar tho
Love that feeling of power



Have to feel the pain of being left behind until you learn to win or see a damn sign
Where should life begin
When can I win
But it's not my turn yet
Did too many sins
Have to try it again
Tired of this descent

U-turns are getting old
My road is printed heavily
It's getting deeper
Pretty soon I'll be at the level with the Grim Reaper
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