If I Poem by Jessica Henning

If i chose to listen to my heart rather than my tears
i wouldnt have been swallowed up for so many years
the friends i had before you are now gone
and ive had it im completely drawn

if i listened to myself rather than your screams
id be in a better place as though it seems
the nights that we shared would be hazey
i wouldnt be sitting on my couch being lazey

if i left you when you first turned on my face
i would have saved myself from being a disgrace
but i didnt leave you i stayed and held your hand
i listened when you talked or when you sang to that band

if i had turned and ran when i told you what he done
i would still be in one piece but instead he won
because you said it was my fault and that i was stupid
and you said it sounded like i was hit by cupid

if i had said yes instead of no
would you have just let me go
i ask myself that every night
because what you did just wasnt right

if i had chose to walk away
i would have saw that brighter day
i wouldnt have cried for 3 months straight
i wouldnt have been treated as someones bait

if i had chose to not love at all
i never would have taken that fall...