I Won'T Give Up Poem by Phil Soar

I didn't set out to be morose and sad
Just look at the life that I've already had
No reason for sadness, No reason to cry,
And yet there is always a tear in my eye

Never knowingly filled with regrets or doubt
Not feeling that life seems to have left me out
Yet suffering daily with low self esteem
Deflecting the praise, and the thoughts so extreme

Whoever gets close, will not stay very long
Relative harm, just feeling so wrong
Unable to think, and at times so distressed
I dare say my parents would not be impressed

Though both not around to see this despair
No warm loving arms, just some memories there
In a moment of madness, I smile for a while
Before I return to this destructive style

I’m trying to change for the better, and then
Starting to love all I have once again
The mountain I climb every day, I compete
Until I feel good, and am back on my feet