I Will Not Weep Poem by Ashley Dowdy (Forbus)

I am tired and I am beat
But no, I will not weep
these troubles i am greeting
this mountain that looks too steep
I will not beat myself up any longer
I sit all day long, thinking...
thinking about thinking
Do i not think enough?
Do I think too much?
Everything is an endless circle
A circle, a swirl of possibilities
A cirlcle, a spiral of disappointments
everything starts coming together
Just to fall into a million more peices
The cycle never ends
Why does God fill our heads with so many emotions?
You cant have Love without pain
You cant succeed without failures
Everything is a test
I need to rest
My mind is a tangled mess!
Has anyone really ever found theirselves?
If so, please tell me how you passed that test!
You think you know someone but you dont
you think you know yourself but you dont
I cant breath, I cant stop thinking, I cant stop running
I just cant go any farther
And then i think im cunning
Says so my mother
I can take on more
I have to keep breathing
I have to keep running
breathing to stay alive
Running til i find my way
The hurt a feel inside
The pain i cannot hide
I am hurt and i am beat
but no sir i will not weep!