I Walk Around Wondering Poem by ESPN CHICK

I walk around wondering my life away
Wondering why I can't get you out of my mind
Your name is everywhere I look
I can't even sleep without waking up thinking of you

It's driving me crazy and I don't know what to do
I would tell you how I feel but I just don't know how
I've been walking around wondering and hoping that you would leave my mind
Here I am in complete silence wanting to pick up the phone

Here I am going insane all because of you
I shouldn't be like this but my heart won't let go
It's been way too long and I'm sure you have someone else
I keep trying to tell my heart to let go

I feel like my heart as started a riot
When I see a picture of you I try my best not to come unglued
Because when we were younger you meant the world to me
Only wished you would have known it but now it's a little too late

I walk around wondering my life away
And I keep wondering why you're still on my mind
Why is your name everywhere
I keep tossing and turning hoping that one day your name will be gone

I keep hoping that it's just a dream that all these feelings are just a joke
But I wake up and do it all over again
And it's driving me crazy because you're no where around me
I keep telling my heart I don't need you and you don't even know how I feel

I'm hanging on to these memories just like they happened yesterday
I keep walking around wondering my life away
Laughing at all of the jokes between you and I
Every time I hear that old Brad Paisley song I think of you

Wondering what could have been
Keeping my feelings to myself
I wish I wouldn't have kept them to myself
But here I go over and over again walking around wondering my life away

Just hoping that I could walk a thousand memories off my heart
You always knew how to make me laugh even in my darkest hour
I don't know what I would have done without you in my life
You were the best friend I loved, looking back now I wish I would have given us a chance

But looking back I miss you like crazy
Now I know as I'm walking around going insane
There was that good in goodbye
Because I could never let you see me now looking like this

June 28 2012