I Thought I Hated Myself Poem by kaitie cicero

i hate myself for letting it turn out this way,
i am only 17 and scared of life,
i use to be happy,
i use to not worry of a thing,
i use to be free to wonder,
i use to be able to dress the way i wanted to dress,
i use to be so free,

there was no pain,
no hurt inside,
not a single voice said you won't make it through this time,
there was no girl fights,
there was no hate,

i sit there and wonder,
why,
what did i do this time,
how will i get through this one,
is there still time,

i lie to my parents,
i lose my friends like crazy,
there was no one to talk to,
but one day,
there came a guy,
that opened my eyes,

It was then i realized,
there will be no more crys,
no more lies.