I Thought By Now Poem by RACHEL ZARANTONELLO

I thought by now the scars would fade
I thought by now I'd be remade
I thought by now I'd leave the dark
But the only thing I've mastered
is falling apart
I hide my tears each time I hear your name
But the pain in my heart
remains the same
Do I wish I never met you?
So it wouldn't hurt so much?
If I never met you at all
how could I miss your touch?
I would never have to know
what losing you would be.
But as it remains,
no one misses you more than me.