I Surrender Poem by Gabryel Nuechie

I wandered through empty emotions and dusty thoughts
Trying to find my way in a world dark
and filled with the choicest rust

My soul within me, gravely bound sought for relief
a sigh even if

I looked around, much shadows
but their assurance of company
never filled the emptiness
that held me like a burrow

When my very existence redefined dry
I heard of a fount whose water would refine life,

The mirage dented gains from my ever present past
threatened to make my ascent slow
What would I say to this soon to be crucified life
to which I daily sowed?

I could give excuses so it understands and not strife
Or let it clash with the Light from which darkness drew life

My pride and love for earth's unlasting glee
Almost deprives me of this thrill
But mercy would attract me
Faster than a lightening bolt
Into the blood pool that would righteously make my soul free

My knowledge tried to fight back this ascension
But my will screamed I surrender in recurring repitition

Finally, the door I have ever shut
Slowly opened with much tearful creaks
My eyes shuddered in struggle to believe it
I will finally let You in!

Then I found the truth that connected my knees to the ground in humble submission
My present and future is Your past and Your past an illusion
For You knew me even before the earth had a foundation

My head with shame collapsed in my palm, I have been naive
How did I ask Life to leave me so I can come alive

With much tearful Joy
I gasped as my guilt and shame did dissipate
And sin like the rebel it was flung out my life's gate
I am ready to lose my self and be Your incarnate
Ready to discard fate and cleave to empyrean faith

At the end of my wanderings I found The Way
Though less travelled, I decided to keep the trail
And when junctions surfaced to lead me astray
I Surrender was the song that kept my stay.