I'M Sorry I Died Willingly Poem by Nikki Taboada

My heart was shattered
My mind, unclear,
Could not comprehend this numbing-pain
The truth, the lies were just things driving me closer to the edge
In these arms I once trusted with my life, but now have dropped me
I tried so hard to exist… to LIVE
But now you’ve found out how truly broken I was

The people I’ve left behind
I wish to tell that they are to not remember me
And they shouldn’t be sad that I was lost – now I’m far happier than I was in life
And to my parents…
I’m sorry I couldn’t be a daughter worth all your love

Please don’t miss me – please move on with life
Be happy…please
For me this was the only way to freedom
For me this was the only way to preserve my sanity
Don’t remember me if it pains you
With all my belongings, please leave them where they are
And I will never truly “leave” you

I’m sorry I was to weak to resist this “opportunity”
I’m sorry I took those pills
I’m sorry I didn’t fight off these bad thoughts
I’m sorry I lied and told you I was fine
I’m sorry I died willingly