I'm Oddly Caught Poem by Safiyyah Manjra

This time I have really done it,
I think,

I may have fallen for a man,
Who gives me feelings which I do not understand,
It is a bit weird as I am now realizing it at hand.
I think this is something I can't reprimand.

I know it doesn't make sense,
I think I care for him,
In immense.
It is so unnatural and there is no aim.

I pull away because these weird encounters are not right.
They give worries which are not a delight.
If he was my age and single I won't have to worry even a slight.

That's not the case.
For now, I feel trapped in this race.

I do not think I will fall,
I know better to do something which will cause me to crawl.

What loves does to you is not always beautiful.
It sometimes leaves you subdued and ungrateful.
That is why I don't engage in relationships of which I am not able.
I think that's why I am so unstable.
Taking life's natural course with a grapple.

I am so weak I can't even control my own emotions.
Maybe this is a situation I am to avoid for future reasons.