I Have Spent All My Life Loving You Poem by Mohammad Younus

I have spent all my life loving you;
But, I have never dared to say,
I want to see you;
Even though I know that you are,
...the transcendent reality,
...the desire to see you pops up,
...again and again in my heart;
That is why I keep on looking for you,
...in everything of the manifestation.

I know that you never cease to be present,
...though you hide your face,
...under the veils of manifestation;
Any time, anywhere, under all circumstances,
...you stand and walk with me.

In order to see you, I tried all odd things:
Renunciation! Meditation! and Killing my ego!
I tried to shut down my mind, to discover you;
But, all these experiments and exercises,
Did not in any measure avail me;
On the contrary, I found that you are beyond,
Experimentation, meditation, and renunciation.

Many a time I tried to give up my urge to see you;
But, I found that your love impels me to continue,
Remembering you;
My intense love for you makes me feel the fact,
That nothing could be compared to you,
Yet, I perceive 'I verily am in your image! '
You are my absolute reality!
My idea of being separate and different from you,
Really stems from my illusion about the reality.

I continually remember you!
And constantly I see your manifestation!
I marvel at the perfection of your order!
I long to get to know you again and again!
Until I absolutely annihilate in you;
You have offered me divine intellect!
By this intellect, I comprehend the one-reality.

I never want this dream of seeing one-reality,
Should any day come to an end;
I have been in this sweet dream since eternity;
My dream is my reality! The real himself guides me,
Towards realising the Absolute unity;
O one-reality! I love You, I'm in You and You in me!

MyKoul