I Apologize Poem by Wilfred Mellers

I Apologize
{A Letter To My Soul}

Where do I start, and where do I begin?
Without you, I know now I am nothing.
After saying it to all the people I know.
I never once took the time to say to you I love you so.

To you, I sincerely apologize.
What was I thinking? Why did I criticize?
I was being obtuse and unwise.
I never looked close enough to see myself in your eyes.

To you, I am sorry.
I was so foolish and angry.
I took you for granted.
But you were all that I ever needed.

After all the things I've said and done.
You never saw me as the villain.
I swear that I am so sorry.
My eyes were blurry.

I cannot find the right words to express how I feel.
For desires I kept deep inside, never to reveal.
Please find it in your heart to forgive.
I kept you like a bird in a cage, captive.

I was so utterly fatuous and stupid.
I see that now, Crystal, and limpid.
I see now that you were always there.
You laughed and listened, showing that you care.

I was a foolish, tiny man learning how to crawl.
It was you who made me stand tall.
You were there to catch me when I fell.
I should have given you more than Hell.

You taught me how to live again then.
You never asked me how, where, or when.
You were my only best friend.
It was you, my broken heart, you could mend.

Downward spiraling counterclockwise.
I wore pants that were too big for my size.
You made me open up my eyes.
You taught me not to compromise.

Filled with tears, and my spirit cries.
Glistening in the skies like fireflies.
Never faltered, given exercise.
My soul, to you, I apologize.