I Am The Feeling Within Me Poem by Violet Warren

I'm opening up
sore to the touch
but I can't get enough
enough will never stop
enough will never come

I know it is wrong
but I don't seem to care anymore
sometimes I wish I could do it
all over again

welcome to the massacare
of this sanction
written down in myself
erasingall I've worked hard to build
embarrassing darkness
it's gone and I'm running free
I guess I've lost all sanity
oh God, what will I do from now on
I'm not that strong

I know it is wrong
but I don't seem to care anymore
sometimesI wish I could do it
all over again
could I live again?
would I breathe again?
or would I deny my self
a second chance?
I'm worthy of it?

welcome to the masqerade
these things
are not what they seem
these masks still hide my face
but they can't seem to hide my shame
if you only knew guilt that I fear
everytime that I look in the mirror
you'd never look at me the same

I know you can see right through me
I'm weak but I am still standing
I believe I've lost understanding
my life's the lie that's eating me
and hate this feeling...

I am the feeling within me.