How many times have I liked to stop living when my friends were under the fire dying.
How many times have I liked to stop feeling compassionate and try to go through what they 're undergoing.
How many times have I tried not to sleep just to experience the feeling of a wink longing.
All my trials and my wishes were just in vain.
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the last line finished the number of times...attaining totallity in this mission is ongoing...10