How Do I? Poem by Nissi lunga

How do I wait for a person who will never appear?
the regulations of this world I no longer want to adhere.
How do I smile on the surface with an injured soul?
my anxiety will only flee once I hear your call.

How do I cook with no pots and pans,
when destiny's claws defy my plans?
How do I go on, when I am weak,
when you are the treasure I seek?

How do I fly to my destination with might,
when you are not with me in this fight?
How do I access the information I desperately need,
when my love is viewed as a mustard seed?

How do I chuckle, when a cloud of sadness covers me,
when it follows me everywhere, , when will I be free?
How do I sing, when sorrow seals my lips,
no hot water can open them even with several sips

How do I dream of a fantasy where you are an illusion,
when I open my eyes reality snaps with conclusion?
How do I dance, when I am suddenly rooted to the earth, unable to inhale, coughing and running short of breath?

How do I read, when my lenses reflect the sun in my eyes?
with fairytales, told as a offspring now filthy lies!