How Can I Expect You To Understand? Poem by Broken Nd Alone

How can I make you understand when you wont listen when I explain?
That's the only reason I turn to a blade is 2 help release the pain
I know its weird and I could do it another way
But 2 me this way gets me through today
I'm not a freak I'm just alone
Waiting 4 you 2 understand my tone
Its not that I don't love you
Its not that I don't care
Its just that I'm in a lot of pain that 2 me just aint fair
Its not that I cant smile its not like I don't laugh
Its just that inside I have this aching pain that for ever seems you last.
You complain when I draw pictures of me
Of the way things should be
With me 6 feet under
And for you 2 forever wander
Why I would do that kinda thing to you
But maybe if you understood id still be alive
Today