Hostage Of Your Soul Poem by Bonnie Collins

If I ever get to heaven, I will look
for you first to let you know I only
am doing this for your own wellbeing

I know your love has been lost many
many years ago, for me, you know
I understand that now and have freed
myself of that tredmendous animosity
that built this huge wall between us

Struggling, and praying nightly for
the pain to subside within your soul
I have given all that I can possibly give
and have realized that now

But it does not give me the power to
through in the towel as I watch you struggle
to even understand the daily chores of life

Your eyes are so sunken in this disease,
it is consuming your every action along with
every non conception of reality

Mother, please know somewhere
I am doing all I can for you and to
guide you through this hell of deterioraton
that has held hostage of your soul........