Happy On The Inside.. Poem by Derrick Andrews

We were never meant to be,
Never connected mentally,
That's how we ended up to be,
Just two people, carefree,
No mutual gain, no regret or remorse,
Our love had taken its pre-planned, negative course,
You had lied to me all along, towards the end I figured out,
That all you ever had in our relationship was doubt,
So I left you alone, to satisfy your damn self,
Not that you ever really cared, or ever tried to help,
Never once tried to connect to what I was feeling,
That's when the shiny paint of our bond started peeling,
You turned into a person, that I truly hated,
Every time we ever talked, you and I debated,
I was so sick and tired, of putting up with that anymore,
I was exhausted, and you seemed to be my biggest chore,
Baby-sitting got old around the age of ten,
All you ever were to me, was a terrible friend,
Realizing the bear truth,
That I never cared for you,
I just wanted to stay true,
To what I said I'd do,
If anything at all, I got what I wanted,
And I'll move on through life without you, unscathed and undaunted,
Unrestrained by your ignorance and filthy lies,
Instead of crying over you, I'm taking to the skies,
Gonna' grab me an angel, and fall in love in heaven,
After seeing you were the devil, after month seven,
I'm so glad I left you now, maybe I'll find someone better,
Someone who thinks the L-word, isn't just some letters,
I'd let her into my heart, farther than you've ever gone,
And after we fall in love, you'll be the past and beyond,
I'll never look back, to the days of our fake love,
Then again, maybe I should, 'cause when push comes to shove,
You always have to retrace, your nearly fatal mistakes,
And me just thinking about you, is all that it takes,
You were the worst thing I ever dealt with, the heaviest burden,
And now that you're in the past, I can continue learnin',
About the mechanics and workings of this thing called care,
Never once when you were with me was this ever there,
Though, to tell the honest truth, I really hate you now,
But I refuse to speak first, and I refuse to bow,
I hope the best for you in life, or at least the best you can have,
Because you've lost the most important guide, leading your path,
So I'll look back at you and laugh,
Because you're lonely and lost,
And if anything, you're grief is you repaying the cost.