Happiness Scares Me Poem by Melanie Walendowsky Baker

I think happiness scares me
more than I know.
I don't want it to visit me
and then up and go.

I think I have tried
to keep it away.
I think I have tried
to not let it stay;

for more than a moment
- a moment is safe.
Then no expectations
will I need to face.

I fear more than happiness
- I fear it will go;
just when I want it
- just when I know;

how elation feels,
and how to be loved,
how to be me,
and how to feel free.

I think happiness scares me
with its promises undue.
I think happiness scares me
whenever I think of you.

(Itajaí - 12 July,2009)