Guilt Poem by Lodigiana Poetess

It strangles the life out of you
Slowly,
It consumes you
fully
by dictating your thoughts.
Its button set to self destruction
yet enroute stains your soul.
It's non- existent but devours your humanity
and is never satisfied.
The feeling in the pit of your stomach is like a vortex
Searching vainly for its force but constantly turns,
churning those emotions buried…
Tears for the dying,
Fears for the living.
Who dictated I should live when so many more have died?
How to live with the tribulation of knowledge…
knowledge that sees another day when others are
condemned to the night.
Never to sleep easy but relive images burned my mind.
To live whilst others have died,
No reason why it should be me…
You swallow me whole until nothing remains
Guilt…………