Guilt Poem by Blaire White

Oh how saying things to you feels so nice
I like all your different outcomes
Sometimes you like to say sweet things too
How could i not love this boy? Who couldn't? Who?
But lately it's become a guilty pleasure
Lately i've been scared of hurting you
I sell off my dignity just for a piece of human grace
Hoping for some of yours too
I don't know how far you'll go
I know you shouldn't love my pathetic waste
Greedy for any attention given
Always wanting more
And at the moment i feel so happy we both agree
But in another i will feel disgusted with my vulnerability
Im so guilty
I find any way for your words to satisfy me
The constant yearning for love
A love i am not capable of having
Because i'm so terrified of how i will be treated once i dont have you
Im also scared of what you'll do
Show everyone how badly i was in love with you
I need a way out
I need to escape
I need to leave
I need to leave this place