From This Day... Poem by hazem al jaber

Every thing around me is gone out...
and so dead...
contrary to what is inside me...
inside me is an astir volcano...
which i never know before...
every thing become so different...
and contradictory to what i feel...
and to what i wish and dream about...
became another person...
even i don`t know who is that...
is that hazem whom i know...

all words and all letters...
which i used to use...
disappeared and lost it...
even my thoughts melted away...
and became don`t know what should i do...
or whom i should think about...
even became a hard person...
with no mercy, even to myself...
with no heart or feelings...
become dead as the things which are around me...
but with an excited volcano...

become a scary man...
afraid every one...
every one who try to come to me...
every one who try even to give me a clemency...
and scare to be a broken again...
and because of that...
become a hateful person...
hateful to all whom are around me...
and never to give up my heart to any one...

this is a promsie to my heart...
and from my heart...
that never to give up again to any one...
and never to love again....

i will destroy every nice word inside me...
and will burn every beauty sight, i loved before...
and will keep the sadness forever in my heart...
will keep the sadness my path...

so...
from this moment i will start...
and please don`t blame me for this...
because its the decision which i took...