First In Five 'What Was Life' Poem by Matt Burgett

For the first time in well over two
As well as the first in around five
I was finally able to shed quite a few
As tears finally fell from my eyes

I let it out and I broke down
Alone as I am tonight
It's been so long since I have cried
And since I have felt right

But I still feel bad for the way
I hurt them in my past
And now I know that honestly
It's why I can't get back

Back to a way of life that'd be
A way of life that's worth living
One in which is sustainable
And could make my life at least livable

I hurt her so much and for that
I died a bit inside
I broke something inside of me
And from that I'm immobilized

I just don't know what to do
When I can not feel happy
It's hard because when your numb
From being sad always

You just faze out and sit back as
The world flashes you by
It changes as you only age
And dream of what was life