Family Is A Six Letter Word Poem by Caylin Paige

To love
And yet to not be understood
Such distance in closeness
Such warmth in cold resentment

Please love unlock this cage
Free me from my mistaken rage
True closeness is all that I craved

Yet I am riddled with judgement
And reproach I feel
From those I hold dear

I told you I would steer
My own wheel
Carved my path
Let the chips fall as they may

Fear implanted in my brain
By your doubt in my intentions
Mistakes I made as a child
I yet still pay

In all fairness
I am a mirror
I feel the same about the mistakes
You also made

Everytime I have tried to let them go
You remind me of why they broke me so

My presence is a gift
I did not know this
I often said sorry for taking up
Any space and still struggle today

I forgive you for not knowing my worth
Even more so I forgive myself
No one is perfect in this world
I am trying my best to let things go

By expressing and transmuting my pain
I free myself from my own cage
And I only hope the same for you

Family is a six letter word
The one I wish I had heard
Was just a six letter word
FRIEND
If we could just be friends.