Failing Poem by Brittany Marsh

I hope you have accepted my fate
As it is in your hands
Slipping closer towards the edge
Fingernails break the surface as i crawl towards the end
Please take my life
I'm giving it up to you
Giving up on everything
Never felt so easy
I am one word
Failure
Trying never felt so hard to do
Tears sting my eyes
I've cried so many days and nights
Wishing i knew my purpose
Self mutilation just doesn't help anymore
Scars more and more noticeable
Breathing has become more difficult
Waking up from a violent slumber
Barely feeling alive
Forced to move unwilling limbs
Every step is more and more difficult
The voices in my head more demanding
Blood in my veins flow less and less
Oxygen isn't reaching my lungs
Please help me find myself once again
I thought you were my cure
Now it seems as if you were just my temporary painkiller
The hole in my chest increases in size
Pain breaks through the sternum
Your incisors sharpened to a point
As you chew my soul apart until i bleed to death
Im begging you
Put me out of my misery
These bruises you left on me feel fresh
The weariness of my nerves leave me paralyzed
Put me to sleep
Don't let me dream
For the nightmares will only trap me
Trying hard
Failing fast