Emotions Poem by Danny Speicher

I feel so many emotions right now and they are overflowing in an overwhelming flood of pain
I know you. I know exactly who you are. And it didn't take more than one conversation.
Unfair trauma as a child bred trauma as the norm and the idea of peace scares you
Because you're not entirely sure what would come out of that mind in the silence

So many emotions, I cannot even process, I don't know what to focus on, but I know they are all laced with pain
So it's less a game of pain or no pain, but which pain will allow me to operate normally
So many emotions... My heart breaks for you and the burden of trauma you carry with you
My heart breaks for that which could have been between us and what was never

You're fighting for your daughter, and I know that you think what you're doing is enough
It's not. It's not nearly enough. You've got a mile to run and you've barely crawled three feet
It's not entirely your fault. None of us saw the curveball he'd send you
None of us saw him moving, none of us saw him do the things to destroy you ahead

So, you felt like you had forever to get things done and I supported that, even if I, myself, at times, question why you had such a lackadaisical pace when it came to her
But I warn you now, that this current plan is only going to cause the separation to last longer
You couldn't have seen it going any other way, when all of your support is here
Your true intent and the best indicator that you really do want this is what you choose to do when you find what I knew you'd find

So many emotions... Even anger... Why did you reject me for the last two months you were here?
Why couldn't you just communicate and let me know what I had done wrong, but now one dinner and you're gone
I gave you the moon and stars, not for reciprocation, but simply for the chance to call you my friend
How dare you make me a friend and then turn me away with nothing but silence, left to wonder why

But, nonetheless, in the milleu of emotions, I can still find a hint of happiness for you
God, how I know you love adventures... I just hope you can learn to value what is valuable to it's core more than adventure
I wish you nothing but the utmost happiness and joy; and for you to find your purpose and passion
And if ever you get lost as you go on your adventures, I will be here, arms open for one of those amazing hugs

I love you

((May 17th,2025)