Drugged To The Deadly Depths! Poem by Aadil Hingorjo

Everyone is there, only I'm absent
Every corner is strange; I'm nowhere...
I'm lost somewhere in my own search
Laughing in cries and crying in laughters
I'm beautifully derailed!
And I'm still chaotically alive.

Trying to do give meaning
Trying to infer me out of me
Trying to be me
And trying to manifest me
I'm somewhere between that me and this me
I'm lost somewhere where I cannot see me.

Oh, you me, where are thee?
Where have you gone?
Why haven't you come back?
Why did you go in books?
Why did you drive in art?
Why did you dwell in literature?
Why didn't you be the apparent you?
Why you always remained deeper like iceberg?
See, I have been unfamiliar to your touch
I miss you, O the plain me
Now is but hell of mess
And frustrating philosophies
Where I'm all alone;
Where you aren't there
And this stage, this phase smells empty.

Pity is the old friends don't sit with me
Elders ignore me
Persons of my age are afraid
My teachers don't dare to tutor
And I'm like a deadly cry! ! !

Scattered from every side
Disturbed in lovelife
Drugged by the endless art
Away from enigmas
I artfully breathe
Yes, I at least breathe
I'm noway dimmed out
I'm walking on firewalls
Defying my dull, dumped self
I'm attuned to journey
Haven't gone tired
I'll find me; I'll find you
This falling tear gives some hints
Traces will reach there
They will make me meet me
Lost to the depths of dunes
Lost to the aesthetic beat
This absurd air whispers something
Something that will soothe me
Something that will bring me back to me!