Do You Remember Poem by Thomas Martinez

Do you remember?
When I held your little hands and fingers
Was afraid too yet my delicate heart lingers
And The joy I felt to care for someone
even I was little too to be someone.
I would listen hours of your baby babble
Sounds better than my own sauve scribble
Even I could not understand anything at all
I would wait hours for your smile to fall.

Do you Remember
Having your fathers nose and mother's eyes
You'd shout through the roof of the skies
Loud enough to call you ' an annoying creature'
But seeing you was always my very pleasure.
Calling my name you would run to my arms
As You did know I will cause you no harm
And you'd stretch your hands to pick you up
To get some more love like a baby pup.

There comes the time of great distance
Like all thing it makes hard to reminiscence
Life meets more people with little less space
And Heart was gonna lose a very special place.
Years after by some blessed hour I find you again
Hoping to mend the bond and a friend to gain.
But alas I could not recognize you anymore
As your smile seems so dead and eyes so dolour

I know not how your smiles got different seasons
with all your maturity and all those reasons.
Did not expect to witness an isolated soul
Who was once such a beautiful like a berbie doll.
Now that I've lost my rights to console.
It hurts more to have a heart with big hole
Don't know what went wrong in this absence
You just don't see me the way I was once.

Still I wonder if you ever look for me
Are you just big enough not to miss me?
Or am I too far to reach, to mourn?
I wonder where those days have gone.
Or if it is our own trivial family squabble?
For our separation I should hold accountable,
Yet Is it only me to feel that way
That 'it's you only who gave me away'.

Now that I have nothing much to chatter
Already lost everything what matters.
It's my time for me to let you ghost
For the peace of my future host
And From my memories of past lives
So the guilt I no more need to relive.
May be it was wrong to think I was something
May be it was a journey to become Nothing.
Still the heart feels heavy, I can't deny
Still dont know, how do i say you Goodbye.