Construct And Then Destroy Me Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

I cross out my eyes and pull out my heart
Become a doll that's been broken apart
My stuffing is red and my hearts oh so cold
Give me my death bringer who has already sold
My soul to another as they place on my strings
Sow me a new heart and place on some wings
They take care in my creation but a thought is still unsaid
How something horrid is lurking up ahead
The kindness is just an act and the healing just a dream
MY eyes are motionless but my mouth wants to scream
My hands cannot move and my body is frozen
Why was I the one this cruel creator has chosen
I see that damn knife and the desolation in his eyes
I try so heard not to see and only deny
I thought you would heal me and clean up my scars
Maybe my wishes are better of lost in the stars
Go ahead and do your worst, I won't fear another mark
Its not like my hearts has already embarked
Into a sea of eternal pain so I do not fear it anymore
I'm use to it now and I know you'll adore
The bloody tears that will fall and you'll lick my face clean
Because you're the one lost and still stuck between
Robing me of my dignity or savoring the taste of pain
I still don't understand your sickness or what you will gain
Do you love to torture what's left of my frame
Is their some kind of toxin I give out that makes you tame
If you do this please make it fast
Because the pain you have brought me still haunts my past
So do me the favor and leave just as you came
You were my creator and still the one to blame
So say your sweet good-bye and kiss me till I bleed
Cause your someone I can survive with out and never need
So unshackle your chains and push me away
Cause I'm going to get stronger a little more each day
I'll walk onto the road to recovery and tear away your drug
I'll steal away your undying love and squish it like a bug
You love to me is just to much and drives away my sanity
Cause every kiss you ever gave was just another profanity