I don't always feel like this
but then there are moments
when it all ceases to make sense
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Chaha tha jo mila nhi Socha tha jo hua nhi Ab chahun kya jaante nhi Sochnaa hai kya jaante nhi............few people can do this what u have done.....amazing.....tremendous.......teached me some thing......thank you for sharing :)
You've expressed your conflictions and desires and you've done it honestly and artfully. You've written a poem to be proud of. I think it's excellent.
A raw, rabid reality of a confession that is both candid and compelling. Poetic therapy that may be a blessing not only to the poet but for many who live lives of contradiction and may see themselves in this poem and be helped!
When I read this poem it gets me to thinking about my own contradictions or hypocrisy. We think we 'stand' for something or 'believe' in it. We champion certain ideologies as being progressive or beneficial. But in the end these are only words. Unless we act upon those things we stand for, or we live by those ideologies, it is merely wishful thinking. This poem has an immensely relatable nature for me. It leaves me with an impact, and I think I'll be coming back to this one from time to time in the future. An incredibly candid and soul searching write Souren. And one which the author should take pride in for being able to see his own limitations. We are none of us perfect whether we realize it or not. You've proven here that you do realize, and that your on a mission to advance beyond your hypocrisy. Very inspiring
Well..this is as honest a work as there can be. The most difficult thing for a writer is to write about himself...to bare his soul. And only a brave person like u could have done it. Every man is full of contradictions..but few realize it n still fewer r the ones who admit it. To write about one's innermost feelings..about one's faults is an act of great courage. You r not afraid to tell the world who you r...so u r not a hypocrite. Great work. Full marks to u.
Souren, here you have bared yourself naked. You aren't a hypocrite, but the opposite. But any confession will become effective only if one shows the resolve to change his ways. I like the comment by Ging Taping. You are the driver, you should know when and where to apply the brakes. Life is a struggle......... but shouldn't allow yourself to be strangled by the circumstances! Never let the booze to bring out the beast in you. There is a beast in everyone. But by taming it, we become more and more human. Compliance to certain rules, practising some restraint and keeping some faith in a power beyond oneself (as man by himself is so helpless) will help us to wage the war of life. I don't mind even if you brand me as an orthodox conformist! The poem as such is great....... but it disturbs!
Not at all Valsa ma'am.. It is not orthodoxy or confirmism to talk about leading a sensible life.. I guess most people (including me a year or so earlier like many 'young' non-conformists) believe that the path to 'modernity' is paved with a chaotic lifestyle.. It isn't. T. S. Eliot said it very well in 'Cousin Nancy', that everyone thought that Nancy was 'modern' but no one knew what it means! ! Now, that I have grown older, I have come to a point in my life where I am trying to admit that I had made mistakes, and have made my life chaotic.. Maybe I still want chaos around, but for a change, that choas should be controlled.. Now I am for controlled chaos! If I be drunk, I will be on poetry and virtue, there is no need for wine.. Life is better with some values kept awake, , .. Breaking rules for sake of it might be 'fashionable', but not sensible...
thanks Valsa..i went through a lot of problems lately coming back againi (PH) makes me feel i am home
Your still youg Souren there's a lot of oppurtunity awaits for you..what you have been through is only a test how can you manage life struggle, right now take it in a positive way.Be strong...Let yourself control and adjust.you are the driver.Sooner or later when u look back you just smile at it.. Be brave
Thank you Ging.. It was a very tough poem to write, and then put it up online., but this was a necessity.. We need to know our shortcomings to change them.
What you are, my dear friend Souren, is a rarity; You are an honest man. I feel EXACTLY the same way. I am a hypocrite! The only thing that saves me from total self loathing is that I know that ALL humans are hypocrites. This is the most sincere, open and honest depiction of the human condition ever posted on this site. Few delve into the depths of their true, inner selves to see what lurks there, what motivates and why; and how on a conscious level they combat their essence. Bravo!
Thanks Kelly.. It is either that I have reached a point or going through a phrase in my life when I no longer care about 'presenting' myself in a certain manner.. I really don't like the hypocrisy around, but when I look at myself I see I am almost the same.. It is better thus, to just let these things out... Just my two cents, but I am done being what I am not.. I still would do no harm to anybody, but I can no longer deny that as a human being, like every other human being, I am flawed.. I am a hypocrite.. That is the truth.. I should accept it and try to move on.. Change and make myself better by trying.. Everything else, anything else, nothing else matter now..
The content of the poem could not have been experienced by the the poet who writes it.A poet imagines conditions and writes from different points of view, even from the point of view of a criminal the poet himself has never been found.Do experience it, Souren.Imagine yourself for example being a murdeur and write a poem....//Anyway this one here is a study in the depths of humankind's soul, this contrdictory existence.Poesy and literature can swimm into these depths.