Clouds Poem by Lauren Humphrey

These clouds of mine dim back and forth from gray to white,
For I still struggle with my constant fight.
My world span out of control,
For without you I did not feel whole.
I wish you could understand what was going through my head,
Baby I hung by my last thread,
And for you I tried,
But damn it all died.
We were both left there alone,
Stuck emotionally in solid stone.
I struggled with the next move,
And to myself it was impossible to prove.
I thought I could live without you by my side,
But that was simply my foolish pride.
I became sick with doubt,
Every time I tried to block it all out.
Our memories brought me to tears,
For nothing compares.
I forgot who I was,
And only focused on my flaws.
Life became so hard,
And once more I was scarred.
But once more I have you near,
Oh how I love you my dear.
My gray clouds have dimmed back to white,
And my life is finally turning right.
I’m happy to have you back by my side,
Without you I easily would have died.
You are the love of my life,
And my reason to stop using the knife.