Chaotic Poem by Emma Jane Rae

Your such a privileged
Self righteous little prick
You lead me on
Didn't give two sh*ts
About your actions
And the hurt you've caused
The devastation
My life's on pause
While I try to rebuild
Some kind of life
Even though this pain
Is still so rife
Got to change my home
And change my job
While you carry on
Running off your gob
Telling anyone who will listen
You did no wrong
But you've continuously lied
For over 2years too long
Filled my head
With empty promises
Believing your every word
With hypotheses
What a fool
I must have been
And I wonder
Am I the only one
who hadn't seen?
Through your charm
Your wit, your wonderful ways,
Swept me up
In a love drug haze
But on the process
Didn't take care of your self
Which lead to deterioration
Of your mental health
And sure enough
a break down came
And you told me
You don't feel the same
You told me
That your love was a life,
And left me hanging
Out to dry
I hope your happy
With the choice you made
But it wasn't me
You were meant to save
It was yourself
But you've let me down
And everyday
I feel like I drown
Drown in sadness
Sorrow and guilt
For missing the life
We shared and built
But
Was any of it true?
I hate the fact
That I still love you.