It rains outside the window (Verlainesque 
rain, if not in my heart: 
my heart ran away one morning 
in pursuit of another song). 
It rains outside the window (melancholic
rain, in some ways so poetic
- but less, prosaic, or so symbolic . . . ) 
It rains, it rains, nothing more . . . dismal Rain. 
I never knew how to watch the rain
outside the window - philosophic trance -
more often than not it fell upon (so blond
then) my locks - atrophic trance -.
It rains outside the window. I smoke. I write. 
It isolates me, the window from the urban 
rush . . . and I in my cage, lascivious 
bird thirsting always in vain. 
It rains outside the window (Verlainesque 
rain, if not in my heart) 
My heart ran away - capricious one -
after a silly song
without rhyme or reason, 
                                               neither here nor there.
May - June 1947.
                
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