Can I Change? Poem by Timothy Long

Can I change?
I grew lazy and bored,
All my hard work hit the floor,
Can I change in older age?
Or does progress just stagnate,
Only time will tell me escaping the devil's tale,
I have become fat and unmotivated in a changing world,
Can I change?
Bills and stress never change,
Friends and loved ones always fade
What can change?
It could be too late,
The damage to the body maybe to permanent,
Should I need to change?
I wasn't accepted in the physical world,
Only day dreams of being someone new,
A nightmare should only be for sleeping,
Bad luck is my case,
Get use to the sound of silence,
Left in the darkness visions of an easier time left in my brain,
What is changed?
No one hears as they don't listen,
I'll stay alone and not bother others no more,
After all nothing last forever,
I can't change,
So I'll take what remains,
Smile an ugly truth,
Is this my change?