Can I Belong? Poem by M McParland

Where can I belong?
In a world that's gone so wrong.
I'm lost and scared.
Quite ill prepared.
The cold out there with a rigid stare.
How does one fare well?

The inner strength I hide.
Even from my very eyes.
Out there I feel so despised.
With every step I reprise
the delicate game of my guise.
Putting up a show of disguise.
Of a man whose brave and never cries.
Who doesn't even recognize
the disgusted looks and hate implied.

God knows that I have tried
to get along and do no wrong.
I've often stumbled along the way.
Selfishly thinking in a daze.
I hope to find a place to fit.
Where the colors are bright
and words don't cut with evil wit.
All I need is a little space.
Where friends are true,
and think I'm really cool.
They'll not see me as just a tool.
Where can I go to find this group?
I don't know I've seen them all.
It is no use.
It's no longer worth the abuse.

How much longer can I search?
When inside it really hurts.
All I want's a place to belong.
Is needing that so very wrong?
I guess I'll go for a little more.
Hoping soon that I'll score.
Until then I'll keep the chore.
Knowing that there must be more.