But Baby..? Poem by Blaire White

Idk

I will kill you like a child
So easily with no emotion

Except the emotion of hallucination
Except the emotion of horrification
Except the emotion of guilt

You were my baby
Baby why did you kill yourself
Baby we could've hanged in the trees
Climb up the tallest one scratching both of our knees
Why'd you have to hang in your closet?
You could have hung out with me

Baby i loved you why did you do this?
There was a way out baby why did you do this?
You had me in your life, we talked about everything
You had me in your life
YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING

You were all fine sweetheart
You only cried twice a week
You were all fine sweetheart
What upset you so much about you meaning the most to me?

Why'd you throw that away
I loved you baby i did
Why did you want to throw that away?
Did you just want to hurt me?
What did i do to you
Did you feel unsafe?
I'd never try to shoot you
Well i guess you tried to shoot yourself
But you know I wouldn't let you

Hello heaven
Goodbye world
Hello sunshine
Why didn't i get the chance to say goodbye to mine?

Why did you want to do it?
What was so bad about what we had?
You poked wholes in your shoes and had streaks up your leg
Your legs were supposed to wrap around me
And you remember right?
We were supposed to live happily
In a vintage house near the lake with a porch
Please god what happened?
"Baby please put out the fire
"Baby please don't reach for your cigarette lighter"
Baby please i loved you
I LOVED YOU BABY PLEASE WHAT DID YOU NOT GET?