Burdening Guilt Poem by Tobias Vireo

TW: Mentions of SH

I look in the mirror,
Wishing this would go away,
The guilt and regret filling me,
As I struggle to accept my fate.
I bite my lip in remorse,
The blade still in my hand.
The pain lingers,
A painful reminder of what I have done.
I hate to be a burden, I hate to be a worry,
I hate to be so weak, so useless,
I hate myself.
Who have I become?
The lonely, lost soul,
Always there but never here
I feel the need to starve myself, to lose this weight.
In order to spare the ones I love from worry,
I stay up late at night,
With tears rolling down my cheeks,
Swallowing my own misery
So that no one else will have to suffer my company.