Beautiful Ballad Poem by Laura arwen

I see an
illuminating light in
solitude
I hope to
live in the
shadows for eternity
All this technology
is repugnant and
unhealthy
I don't see
my horizon
My days are
bright only when
I do the
same things everyday
I want to
live in a
free and monotonous
world
I need the
money but it's
too hard working
I need to
have my free
time because for
me it's very
important to write
every day
I have to
mentally learn how
to handle my
hobbies and household
chores
In this moment
I only see
darkness in my
spare time
Staying alone and
in the extreme
isolation is the
best thing for
me
Sometimes I'm frustrated
to not spend
my time with
my hobbies or
staying at home
all day
Some other times
I get angry
with myself in
wasting my time
I need a
comfortable house