all was quiet
all that could be heard was my heart beat
i could hear my thoughts
telling myself i shouldn't have messed up again
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Very good write. I relate to your loneliness, and pain. I also am self destructive, my addiction is trying my best to be numb. I wear my heart on my sleeve, not a easy thing to live with. I allow people to hurt me, when I shouldn't give a crap about what they think or say. I have no control over what people do or say so I force myself into being numb, quite a deadly game. Sometimes I don't care if I wake up in the morning, or care at all about my health. Then sometimes it crosses my mind of how God loves me, like I love my children, and how He is in agony over every wrongful thing I do to myself. I certainly would be in tremendous pain if I saw my children doing what I do to myself. I couldn't imagine the pain either if I knew they thought of them selves the way I think about myself. I am so grateful they are healthy in every way. If they weren't, I'd know it, they are very open with me, and I can see that they are doing well. If things weren't that way I couldn't begin to imagine the stress, let a lone the over whelming pain. I know they feel pain over my self destruction, and I'm trying my best to get healthy. It starts in the mind, moves into the heart, and then outward. I'm my worst enemy. Enough about all that for now, I just wanted you to know how much your poem touches me. You're not alone.
Speachless really.So real..It's good you write poetry. I agree with Mark Sellen, I also find self-harming a big of a concern. I am not going to start the usual line about getting some help if you don't want to. Let all your pain on paper...Not on yourself please.
Ultimately we are are always alone... Alone with our thoughts... We live a solitary life, seeking comfort from those around us... Seeking approval for a life which requires none... When we learn to be us, we become all that we can be... I love your poem... We are all beautiful...
I like this and would have probably given a 9 if capitals were used. I can sense the pain, though I find 'self harming' a bit of a concern? As a reader you want to reach out and give that person a hug, tell them to put away the knife, find an alternative way to come to terms with feeling alone, tell them that stupidity is sometimes just being human. Everyone does things they end up regretting and then repeats the mistake. It's how we are. The poem, though a little disturbing works! Mark
the sadness and pain..you've captured it well in your lines. A good write.
though being alone could be troublesome but in that place of loneliness one discovers his or herself
What color would you paint your heart? Up until it you bleed again
another sound is in the room, the drip of tears from one who cares. You may not see or hear the angel at your side, but she is there and she holds you so close....hugs n blessings.....
you have gone through so much in life as the lines tell.liked the poem.keep inking.
The reality of your poetry is heartbreaking......perhaps this is what makes it so powerful and raw. Please continue to pour all your anguish and pain onto the ink but leave it there. You deserve to be happy.