Again. Poem by something changing

again...
can i go through this again?
at least there's
not as much attachment
in fact
i'm rather
unattached
for this reason
i think i've learned
to protect myself
from this sort
of loss.
but if things work out
i'll always be on edge
would that be worse?
would i rather lose a friend?
than always be scared
that'll i'll lose one eventually?
which is better?
which is less painful?
i don't want
to go through this again...