A Poem To God: Suicide Poem by MTHANDAZO SAMAL MKHWANANZI

Oh Lord, I once considered ending it all,
Would you care if I died, or would I just fall?
A gun in one hand, a rope in the other,
Two paths to eternity, with no turning back to discover.

A bottle of poison, a cliff to jump from high,
I wanted to vanish, to say goodbye.
Tired of life's struggles, I'd made up my mind,
But would you care, dear Lord, if I left behind?

I'd tried every solution, but saw no way out,
This desperate choice, my last resort, without a doubt.
I didn't want to hurt others, or cause them pain,
A solitary end, my preference, in vain.

Oh Lord, would you let me swallow my pride?
My demons tormented me, as I struggled to survive.
In a world that seemed cruel, I felt lost and alone,
But you, dear Lord, you cared, and made me feel at home.

You stopped me every time, when I tried to give in,
And for that, I'm grateful, my heart full of joy within.
I would have missed so much, my daughter's growing years,
And the love we share, through laughter and tears.

Thank you, dear Lord, for caring, for being there,
For giving me a second chance, and showing me you care.