I was born April 30th 1995, and since than, I have gone through a lot of stuff, including PTSD from Near-Death experiences and Sexual Abuse, Major depressive disorder from my true love moving away, and bieng sent to a treatment center in Utah for the previous reasons. Although I maintain a 4.0 in school back here in Bakersfield, I am still very depressed and have thoughts of suicide all the time. It is just finding a way to express them through a non-hurtful way, without letting my parents know how I feel, and I found poetry.
What is going on with me,
I am suffering, why can’t you see
I swim in blood all day and night
Waiting for her to be my light
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A wisp of darkness engulfs the light
As I slip into this dark night
A night I won’t recover from
No matter how hard I try to run.
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Trapped I am inside myself
my blood is black, I am not well,
my mental status is intact,
Although I can't get over one fact
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The word Forever is a lie
When darkness comes, and light is neigh,
Because her hand lets go of mine
And my face it does not shine
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I remember so clearly the day I first met her
Feelings so real I was sure
But then she did leave like a bird in the winter
My mind stuck on her like a burr
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