Nisha K. Janine

There was a little ladybug
Cuddling up, snug with her pug
Happy as a fiddle
Confused with riddle
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How can I open my eyes?
When I know you won't be there.
Know you won't hold me
Knowing you won't care.
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When did I forget to walk tall?
Hold my head up
Stand my ground
When did the stench of my pride overwhelm
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Step up
Step down
Why are you so obsessed with me
Constantly staring at the numbers I show
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WhenIHurt My words collapses
WhenIHurt All my excitement flies away
WhenIHurt My friends disappear
WhenIHurt I am afraid
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Kicking and screaming in side my mind
tIll i finally decide to do something
tiLt my head, take a deep breath
wilL it hurt, will take long?
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Draped in layers still my body so cold
My skin cringes, bumps appear like a chain reaction, they crawl across my skin
This bag of bones full of anguish and exhaustion
My lip quaking off the richter scale, the seams about to split and let out a cry
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Calm
Something I am not, yet I long to be
My life drum pounding faster
My lungs inflate and diminish with the shallowness of my will
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Dragging these concreat blocks through life,
day by day, no will to keep me going,
the emotional distress to much!
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My heart breaks
It aches for you
once i was so angry
your love made a way
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Look at me
My smile is more then enough
my clothes placed so no one wonders
my disfigured mind masked by laughter
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Drowning in intoxicant,
soaking up my downward domineer,
trying to understand!
yet with each sip, nothing becomes clear
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How do you tell the person you love,
that you never want to speak to them again?
How do you explain,
that it would be easer i you never meet?
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My longing is unjustified
my wants, wrong
yet without them i am empty.
I Know i need to move on
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My familiar friend, so dear to my heart
so long have i denied you in to my life
just knowing you are near makes me squirm
all the memories you have etched in to me
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blaring music drowning out my thoughts
the lyrics speaking to the darkness of my soul
agreeing with my bad choices
I am i strong...Do i give in? ?
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Words, witch one can i put together
to tell the one i love
i cant go on...
How can i portray
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Do you...
see the fear on my face
do you...
see the tears in my eyes
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I said i loved you to
...so its mostly my fault
I said i trusted you
...so thats why i feft you
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