i am sixteen and yes i am a bitter, lonely, and sad person BUT the reason why almost all my poems are about suicide is because i can only seem to write when i am on the edge of an emotional abyss. i have probaly wrote about 100 poems in the past 5 yrs but as the years go by i either forget what i wrote or i lose the papers in an attempt to forget my sorrows. :) but i intend to share some of my older poems which i wrote about 1-2 years ago...forgive me if they are not perfect because i can never get my words to rhyme all i can ever do is make ppl feel or invision what i am writing about. i live in oklahoma STILL :) . i love the ocean, seabreeze, palm trees, sand (even tho it is annoying) , i love to cook (but not clean..hey i am a teen!) i enjpy reading, hanging out with family (when not stressed) , playing computer games / :) / i TRY to enjoy my life but at times it seems too hard to do that. thank you for your comments if you leave one...umm g'nite/ g'mornin' everyone!
I sit here staring into the dark lonely, sad and angry.
I look in my broken window and I see the stars.
I grab at the glass shards on the ledge.
Next, I am screaming in the confines of my prison cell in this place I call home.
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Your Life may Not be always bright
but your soul is like a light
you carry in the arms
and prepare to fight
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days pass by in a blur,
defining me for all eyes to see
tingles licking their way down my body remind me to breathe and just believe
believe that these weeks shall soon be over indeed
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I SEEM TO BE SURROUNDED IN A NIGHTMARE,
A NIGHTMARE FROM HELL,
LIES MEAN NOTHING TO THE DEMONS AND CREATURES THAT RESIDE IN MY PERSONAL SLICE OF HELL,
I TRIED TO BE A GOOD PERSON BUT EVERYWHERE I LOOKED I SAW THE THINGS I HAD BEEN HIDING FROM,
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the shadows and ghosts of my past haunts me,
creating this abyss inside of me,
making me want to be what i once was.
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