I had no faith that there was any god,
never mind one who answered our prayers.
But when desperation intrudes, reason
leaves by the back door and you cling to straws.
...
Decades on,
when we meet again,
we will be older,
wiser, but more youthful;
...
Because of you
I burn with fever.
Because of you
my lungs are ravaged.
...
There are rich fertile minds
where ideas can take root,
where intelligence finds
the conditions that suit.
...
Person scanned and scrutinized;
stripped of dignity,
relieved of all potential weapons;
lethal and otherwise.
...
In Eden, the serpent once led us astray,
now Science has given his secrets away,
for, coiled like a snake, in each cell, they say,
the cause of the trouble is our DNA.
...
(Reflections on visiting a National Trust property.
I know that the great country houses and estates are monuments to unjustifiable privilege - often gained by devious means and maintained by unsavoury, even outrageous practices. But I also know, that if I had ever had the good fortune to own one - it would have broken my heart to give it up)
...
Bulbs and buds burst forth
in a sweet refrain of joy.
Spring song sung again.
...
I gave up on religion as a child.
It simply was not good enough.
None of them were good enough.
The gods on offer were so unbending-
...
And when our tears had washed away the blood,
Spain was still in pieces -
Dismembered! Shredded! Disembowelled!
Sharp words on all sides had drowned out reason.
...
You walk among the pigeons
with a grin as wide as Cheshire,
like you just got the cream
or swallowed the canary.
...
Wave the worker's flag.
Savour a glass of merlot.
Think danger, think stop.
...
I've spent half a lifetime
living for what might have been -
half a lifetime chasing an elusive dream.
Treasured memories
...
There's half a world between us, but you're still in my heart.
It sometimes seems, despite the miles, we're really not apart.
But sometimes it seems light -years, Babe, and then I cannot see
How I will ever kiss your lips or hold you close to me.
...
GNOSTIC
Her fleshly prison crumbles around her,
but still holds -
...
Full Circle
I had no faith that there was any god,
never mind one who answered our prayers.
But when desperation intrudes, reason
leaves by the back door and you cling to straws.
That's how I came to be lying in bed
eyes closed, silently pleading for mercy.
I prayed to my nebulous deity
‘til sleep put an end to my posturing.
I dreamed a heavenly chorus who sang
all night long, or so it seemed when I woke.
But the words were largely lost as daylight
bleached out the memory, reminding me
that the world had ended just yesterday;
reminding me that I had nothing left
to hope for, had lost my capacity
to imagine a meaningful future.
As I carried out my dreary duties
numbly interacting with my fellows,
fragments of the dream chorus still echoed -
'You have no choice - just shoulder your sorrow,
walk into tomorrow.' Fatuous words
bringing no comfort, igniting no hope.
'His love is the beacon' that's what they sang.
But no light shone to dispel the darkness.
There was only the Voice, the silent voice
speaking in riddles as I went insane -
the voice that proved to be a better muse
than I had ever known. But even he
has left and all that remains is a cache
of world-changing secrets that might be lies.
I have no faith that there is any god,
never mind one who answers our prayers.