I was born to a sickly woman of 40. She was told that I was going to have permanent mental and/or physical disabilities, but the only permanent effect I have noticed so far is that I stutter. My parents were divorced..twice. I never really had a relationship with my father. I fear my mother is going mad and my family is falling apart. My eldest brother is living here with my mom, my mentaly handicapped brother, and me still. I may be this family's only hope, but i don't mean to sound.....whats the word...idk. w/e.
There is alot more i don't feel like putting in here. So if you wanna know then ask me i guess. or not. you choose.
Father who are you?
Where have you gone?
Did I do something,
something so wrong?
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I have no pride,
I searched inside,
I could not find,
my pride in time.
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With each day that passes
The question begs answer
This unspoken love
Will it be my cancer?
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Another sleepless night drags on
add another notch to the bedroom door.
Two rows of five and one more of four
this one makes fifteen and I know there'll be more.
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My unspoken words
Are mangled by forces unseen
As I trip and I fall
All in vain it does seem
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