Almost 5 years
What has become of us
Mixed emotions, uncertainty
Always lacking trust
...
She Loves Him Forever & Ever
But She Thinks About His Ways
She Knows He Is Gone For Good
She Tries So Hard To Get Through The Days
...
What You Don't Appreciate,
Someone Else Does.
What You Took For Granted,
Another Person Loves.
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So Many Things I Have To Say
But Don't Know Really Where To Start
So This Poem I Write To You
These Feelings From Within My Heart
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I sit around here an wonder,
Is this the life, god has planned for me.
I think of all the past memories,
The worst are all I see.
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Tell Me How To Move On
When Your The One I Miss
How To Erase The Memories
As If Our Love Didn't Exist
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In the darkness of the mind,
Lies a shadow, cold and unkind.
It whispers thoughts of despair,
And fills the heart with heavy care.
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Mentally I'm drained
Physically I'm Down
Don't wanna get out of bed
Don't want anyone around
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Tell Me How It Feels,
In A Month Or Two.
When U Regret Everything,
You Put Me Through.
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I Wanna Move On
I Wanna Break Free
I Wanna Forget You
And All Our Memories
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I'm hanging on to nothing
For months its been this way
After all that you've done to me
I'm so stupid, I just stay
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Going Through My Messages
I Scroll Down And See Your Name
Those Tiny Hearts On Each Side
But This Time Wasn't The Same
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Once upon a time I was happy,
Every one who knew me would agree.
But then I met a narcissistic man,
Who over time sucked the life out of me.
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If u don't love me
There is a easy way out
Just tell me the truth
And tell me to get out
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Do you drink for fun?
Do you drink because of regret?
Do you drink yourself to sleep?
Does it really help you to forget?
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You tell me you love me
But you lay with her
I've always had black hair
But I guess red, you prefer
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In the silence of my room,
I whisper your name.
Echoes of our love,
now a flickering flame.
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I've played the games
I've told the lies
I've hurt the ones I loved
This is no surprise
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I cant keep chasing you
Because I know you dont care
I can't keep looking for love
When I know it's no longer there
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He Cheats
Almost 5 years
What has become of us
Mixed emotions, uncertainty
Always lacking trust
You promised to love me
An said I was the only one for you
Then off you went to meet her
Thinking I'd never have a clue
We don't want to face this
Even though we both clearly see
We are not meant for each other
And probably will never be
All the games u play
All the lies u tell
All these other women your with
Has only put me through hell
I have always been strong
But u have made me weak
Each time u run back to meet her
It just Knocks me right off my feet
Of course I love you
But that has slowly faded away
Just like the times you left us
To run around with her an play
This is not the life I want
It's not a way to live
I truly believe i deserve more
More than u ever could give
Goodbye an good luck
With your new miserable life
I'll pray for the lucky girl
That has her turn with you tonight :)