Lisa AT Poems

As I walk through the dancing leaves on the cold deserted street
I feel the crunches under my feet
In a flash my childhood springs to mind
I look ahead, to the side and behind
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Thirty-six or so years ago, our paths collided,
And in that moment, my heart was decided.
I saw your smile, and I knew right then,
You were the one I'd love, my forever.
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As autumn's palette starts to unfold,
Golden hues and crimson leaves take hold.
The sky is set aflame with pink and orange bright,
A cool crispness stirs, and day succumbs to night.
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You wore a smile to mask the fray,
While colour slowly bled to gray.
To family, friends, and anyone near,
You spoke no word of hurt or fear.
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You turned my garden to a field of flint,
A theatre of wars I never sought to wage.
I wore your shadows like a fingerprint,
And carried your silence like a heavy cage.
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My world was shattered, torn apart
All thats left is a broken heart
Nobody seems to understand my pain
This isn't living, it's a constant strain
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Saying goodbye to the past
The ghosts that haunt me night and day
It's taken a decade to get here
But I'm finally ready to blow the cobwebs away
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There are days when living feels like a weight,
A burden to bear, a constant, crushing fate.
The thoughts in my head, a relentless, nagging guest,
A feeling of devastation, that never finds rest.
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I miss you
Every single day
You consume my every waking thought and my dreams
What can I say?
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The pain cuts deep, deeper than a knife
My mind has been muddled for so long I don't know what's real
I lost my way and I'm forced to fake a smile through the strife
I'm ashamed of my life because its empty
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