Lisa AT

As I walk through the dancing leaves on the cold deserted street
I feel the crunches under my feet
In a flash my childhood springs to mind
I look ahead, to the side and behind
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My world was shattered, torn apart
All thats left is a broken heart
Nobody seems to understand my pain
This isn't living, it's a constant strain
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Saying goodbye to the past
The ghosts that haunt me night and day
It's taken a decade to get here
But I'm finally ready to blow the cobwebs away
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There are days when living feels like a weight,
A burden to bear, a constant, crushing fate.
The thoughts in my head, a relentless, nagging guest,
A feeling of devastation, that never finds rest.
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I miss you
Every single day
You consume my every waking thought and my dreams
What can I say?
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The pain cuts deep, deeper than a knife
My mind has been muddled for so long I don't know what's real
I lost my way and I'm forced to fake a smile through the strife
I'm ashamed of my life because its empty
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2 years have almost gone by filled with sorrow and pain
Never accepting the fact I won't see you again
I no longer have you in this human life
But I hope you're still there
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We tell ourselves we still have time,
But do we, really? Only moments align.
Time slips away, like sand in the air,
Soft, silent, unstoppable, without a care.
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Sleeping beside you, my favourite soul
Is heaven on earth, making my heart whole
Not because of the bed or the blanket so fine
But because of the love, that's forever intertwined
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Christmas carols, Christmas trees
Tis the season, Christmas sneeze
Head is heavy, the cold is biting
Must finish the shopping, its getting exciting
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I sit here and wonder
Is it ever to be?
Will I get to display
The mother in me?
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Loneliness doesn't shatter me,
It's the familiarity that's the sea
I'm drowning in, where silence is the tide,
Expected, not echoing, my soul inside.
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My gaze fell upon my phone's silent face
A heavy sigh escaped, a longing took its place
To call you, to hear your voice, a deep desire
But reason whispered 'no, ' my heart on fire
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As autumn's palette starts to unfold,
Golden hues and crimson leaves take hold.
The sky is set aflame with pink and orange bright,
A cool crispness stirs, and day succumbs to night.
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As endings draw near, fear's familiar face
appears once more, with uncertainty's dark pace.
Eighteen months of growth, of trials and of strife,
Counselling's guiding light, a beacon in my life.
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A year has passed since you left my side,
Eddie, my beautiful tabby, with a heart that's departed.
You left an emptiness that echoes through my soul,
A void that gapes, a heart that's lost its goal.
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You say I'm a stress and just a liar
Then you say I'm your hearts desire
You cause me pain with your cutting words
How can I trust you? It's just absurd
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At first the thoughts are normal
Thinking about tomorrow
But soon they escalate to fear
Until I am drowning in my sorrow
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Poked and prodded, endless tests
I beg... Please no more, let me rest
Disease has ravished my body, giving me only one choice
I see the consultants mouth moving, but can no longer hear his voice
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I never thought of death, too busy living my life
But facing it head-on, cuts like a knife
I'm just a daughter, sister, or wife
A statistic, a number, a fleeting life
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